Sunday, December 21, 2014

Season Haunt

"It's the most wonderful time of the year!!!"  That is a phrase of a song that keeps going on and on inside my head.  Yes, it definitely is the most wonderful time of the year.  We are commemorating the descending of God to us through the birth of our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Though it must be all about Jesus, I see myself getting distracted with a lot of things. I have to do this and that.  And stuff to be done just continuously keeps popping up. Right now I am distracted because of my ongoing thesis.  Then there is this thing that keeps on haunting me.  I am praying to God about something that I want and I am asking Him if it is also something that He wants for me.  I feel that the answer is already there but it is just I do not know how to give meaning to it.

I was reading my facebook newsfeed, and I saw a very familiar name.  I am always a bit jumpy whenever I saw that name anywhere.  Of all the things in my newsfeed, the article with that name really caught my attention.  It is actually the name that made me re-look at that post.  

Then, while I was watching a Christmas movie, I saw this same familiar word again.  That name.  I am not really into reading the opening credits of a movie.  Of all the instances that may grab my attention, it was when this name was shown.  I was thinking, "It could be something else???"

As I was browsing journal articles for my thesis, I saw again that familiar word.  If I am not mistaken, it was four times.  It really is haunting me.  I cannot figure out what God is telling me.  Lately, I am not having this peace because of the things that need to be done during this Holiday.  I need to finish so many things with so little time.

But my mind keeps on wandering and I am not able to "sense" what God is telling me.  I really need to find time to be in "real" silence for me to feel peace.  It coincides with the theme for the fourth week of advent - PEACE.  Yipee! We already lit the fourth candle of our wreath.

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